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Photo reblogged from Uncreative Imagination.
I stumbled upon an old photo which was similar to an actual one. I placed them next to each other and was deeply saddened by the amount of destruction and hatred against my body. It only took a few months to get there but I’ve never seen any difference in my reflection no matter how much weight I have actually lost. You just lose one’s grip to reality. I never wanted to ‘fit in’ or to make myself ‘beautiful’, but I thought it would make me happy. I only yearned for happiness. And if it wouldn’t make me happy, I wanted to look at least as sick, fragile and needy as I felt.
Today there is no meaning anymore. The dirtiness that comes with an eating disorder will never make you happy. It is just an illness, a discomforting addiction which keeps me alive and kills me slowly at the same time.
this is really powerful
Woah
her eyes look so different, they lost their luster. Ladies, love your one and only body. It can do amazing things if you let it!
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This is one of my favorite commercials of all time. I also quite enjoy the ones they make closer to Mother’s Day (and the Olympics for that matter) that show “that behind every great athlete is a loving mother” - anyway childhood gymnastics really tugs at my heart strings.
Gymnastics in my childhood taught me that the body is an amazing physical instrument and that it’s strength is amazing, sometimes surpassing mental tenacity and very resilient. When I would fall down and be scared to try again, my muscles would reassure me it would all be okay. They knew just what to do to create euphoric sequences all I had to do was go for it. Hours of training never left my muscles. This also taught me patience, great art takes a lot of work and seeing it all come to fruition can take a very long time - but it is always worth it, if one just takes the time. Gymnastics taught me how to set goals, how to be fearless. It’s not always about not being a little scared, it’s about being scared and going for it anyway.
It’s about working hard, all people are stronger than they think, in all ways. It taught me focus - and all these lessons are things I use everyday in numerous applications. Gymnastics left me with some nasty insecurities and inevitable girl drama; but it left me numerous beautiful and unforgettable sensations, empowerment and memories I would never trade for anything.
… and then came the music in my life. but that’s for another post and another day <3
